Please excuse the wildly cliche opener of a mirror in a room for a submit about reflections. We didn’t take a bunch shot this 12 months (at the least I don’t assume we did) so a good looking room with an enormous ole mirror to speak about our huge ole emotions felt applicable. That is the final submit of 2022 and connecting with you on a private stage, sharing the great and among the onerous is precisely how we wished to shut it out. We’re endlessly grateful for you all and hope that studying about our 2022s brings us all a bit of nearer.
Oh, 2022. Big life modifications that got here with a whole lot of feelings, together with pleasure, reduction, success, gratitude with a aspect of remorse, insecurity and disappointment. What’s constant (and I feel an enormous mid-life factor) is there are such a lot of questions in which you’ll’t rush the solutions. 2022, post-lockdown was one of many more difficult years in latest historical past for us. And that’s okay. I’m right here to be taught all the teachings. My youngsters are thriving, Brian remains to be my favourite particular person to hang around with, and I get to see all my finest associates and siblings extra incessantly now that we stay in Portland. The weblog remains to be steady (due to you), after a wild pandemic 12 months or two with spiking, risky visitors (some unbelievable months, some simply odd). I really feel just like the readability that I had throughout lockdown remains to be right here, priorities are firmer than ever, and who, what, and the place I focus my consideration is powerful. This 12 months we went to a happiness convention which was fairly enlightening. My guide got here out (and continues to do properly, however we didn’t make the New York Instances Bestseller listing like Styled did, which was a bit disappointing, actually). I went on Good Morning America and was reminded that stay nationwide TV is panic assault inducing. We moved into the farm and really feel so grateful to work with so many companions on such an extremely odd/thrilling profession of private and residential content material creation for hundreds of thousands to see/view/like/choose and share. I’ve by no means been so onerous on myself and I’m making an attempt to determine why. I’ve some theories. I discovered an superior freelance workforce in Portland that I like working with each week (shout out to Emily M. and Kaitlin Inexperienced) and so love and recognize that my workforce that you just all know, Jess, Ryann, Mal and Caitlin who proceed to navigate the thrilling waters of the web with me and add worth to the world. In the meantime, we’re beginning to dial in the home with decor, room by room which is lighting my hearth once more (and a lot much less fraught than a renovation – I LOVE STYLING). I’m writing a full submit about the way it has been residing in Portland so extra to come back. All in all, I really feel prefer it was one other 12 months of pleasure, questions, desperately making an attempt to remain gradual, classes, and being grateful for my workforce and all of you who spend time right here (particularly the long-time readers that maintain me going once I’m down – thanks) xx
I didn’t understand it till I sat down to jot down this, however this 12 months has been all about change. My Life™ has modified and I’ve modified, and I don’t assume I’d have totally appreciated that reality if I wasn’t requested to replicate on the previous one year. However whew, the place to start?? Oh proper, I received married this 12 months!!! And everybody likes to ask “how is married life?” and “does it really feel completely different?”. I swear most individuals anticipate us to reply “Nope it’s the very same as earlier than!” But it surely isn’t. It’s completely different, it feels deserved, and issues did shift after we received married (for the higher). And I do know marriage isn’t at all times simple (a story our society is hooked on perpetuating for some motive) however marriage is nice proper now and I’m so grateful. What else? Oh *goes to Italy as soon as* I’m additionally a world traveler!!! Earlier this 12 months we went to Italy for my husband’s brother’s wedding ceremony and it was the primary time both of us had ever traveled internationally. That have was not solely enjoyable/thrilling/new but it surely additionally taught me that I can journey with out having a panic assault and that my husband and I are nice journey companions. I’m famously an anxious traveler however we had an unbelievable expertise that prompted us to guide our honeymoon in 2023–this time to Japan. Superb. However sadly, life isn’t revolved round me jetting off to a different nation every year. Life, as everyone knows, is obsessive about ups and downs. And to be sincere, there are far too many downs for my style. I imagine most individuals know that my brother handed away on August eighth, 2021 at 29 years outdated, and this 12 months I discovered that I’ll at all times transfer via life with grief. The grief transforms and reshapes itself continually, however by no means goes away. I additionally witnessed folks closest to me expertise their very own devastating losses this 12 months and I’ve come to appreciate that the most effective issues I can do in life are nurture my relationships, present up for the folks I like, and make sincere connections. In 2023, I can’t wait to observe my brother’s daughter develop up and change into extra like him day by day, journey with my husband, and proceed to vary/develop as an individual. What a cool life <3
I used to be making an attempt to see if I may give this 12 months a letter grade however that feels kinda not possible. My preliminary thought was D+ however that’s seemingly a bit of dramatic and attributable to emotional exhaustion. However actually, by way of my private life, this has been a tough 12 months. I’ve been battling despair attributable to in all probability what are nonetheless the after-effects of the pandemic (not that it’s over) and all of the horrendous issues taking place on the planet and within the nation every day, but additionally due to some issues I don’t wish to speak about on the web. Every part on that entrance is manageable, fortunately, however that doesn’t make shifting via it simple. Melancholy throughout lockdown felt a bit of completely different. Whereas nonetheless extraordinarily onerous and 0/10 stars, there was at the least some bizarre solace in realizing I wasn’t lacking out on residing life. I’ve by no means actually suffered from “FOMO” however while you’re coping with despair in “regular” life there’s only a common disappointment of not being able to completely expertise it whereas others are/can. I additionally know that clearly I’m not alone in these emotions. Most of my associates are going via one thing comparable even when they’re for completely completely different causes. I’m wildly grateful that all of us have one another but it surely’s simple to then to not wish to burden your pals that even have their very own struggles. And to be honest my despair actually solely kicked into excessive gear within the latter half of the 12 months and even then I’ve had some actually fantastic moments. Like my pricey school buddy and cousin getting married (not to one another:)). Jess Bunge LOVES to bounce so weddings are proper up my alley. I received to go to NY for an extended weekend to see a few of my finest associates in addition to an extended journey in the summertime. I went to go see Rodrigo Amarante, Stevie Nicks, Florence and the Machine, and Alicia Keys in live performance! All so unbelievable and shifting. Within the spring (the higher half), I went to Mexico once more and felt extra alive and like myself than I had in years. Additionally, by way of every day life, I nonetheless love my job and know what an enormous deal that’s. I feel the true challenge is that in my private life I’ve been largely simply letting life occur to me. I’ve type of misplaced a way of actual possession and going via the motions which I do know simply comes from a scarcity of feeling worthy. That’s one thing I’ve battled with my entire life and I do know it’s solely ever been alleviated once I make sturdy choices and put myself even just a bit exterior of my consolation zone. In order that’s what I plan to vary this subsequent 12 months. I have already got plans within the making to hopefully house swap with somebody in New York for a month or two (not earlier than my front room is revealed:)), go to my dad in Paris (sure, the already coolest dad on the planet has determined he’s residing in France for 3 months beginning this January), and some different concepts I’m nonetheless determining which are extra inside job issues. I’m simply bored with feeling caught however I’m the one one to unstick myself. In order that’s the place I’m at and hopefully, in case you are coping with comparable emotions you realize that you’re completely not alone. 2023 right here we come…BE BETTER, OK???
Would you like the excellent news or the dangerous information first? (Hope you picked “dangerous,” as a result of that’s the place we’re beginning right here.) Once I look again, a whole lot of 2022 felt like I used to be bouncing from disaster to disaster – the 12 months began with two back-to-back deaths, adopted by an never-ending slew of private stresses (my favourite: the multi-month black mould nightmare in my house), and December’s highlights included a tough bout of Covid (my first time – had all the signs; examined optimistic for 15 days straight; don’t advocate) instantly adopted by my 12-year-old cat’s first-ever journey to the kitty ER. However a whole lot of the unfavorable feelings and stresses associated to those dangerous issues have been blunted as a result of…
(That is the excellent news half.) GUYS. It lastly occurred!!! I fell in love in 2022!!! For the primary time ever!!! At age 31!!! (In the event you couldn’t guess, it’s with that man up there on the left! AHH!!!) Because it seems, a whole lot of sucky issues occur to suck quite a bit much less when there’s a form and affected person and considerate particular person round who’s keen that will help you navigate all of the murky and mucky stuff. I’d by no means been in a position to ~get there~ in earlier relationships (very NOT Libra of me) and was fairly positive I used to be destined to be the enjoyable brunch buddy – like, in case your squad is in want of a gal with a nasty date story, I’ve received hours of them – so activating a brand new a part of my mind and feeling a complete bunch of recent emotions has been VERY EXCITING. (I may write 2,000 phrases in regards to the ~meet cute~ and all the things else, however I’ll simply say this: he’s the most effective, I like him, and he reads the weblog so SAY HI TO DENNIS, PLEASE.) Additionally thrilling: it was an amazing 12 months of journey and friendship. I flew cross-country 16 (!!!) instances; watched a ton of my finest associates get married in NYC, Vermont, Delaware, and California; went to Firefly (in Delaware, very enjoyable) and When You Had been Younger (in Vegas, additionally very enjoyable, however within the “it’s an absolute catastrophe” method); loved Seattle and Northern California with the EHD workforce; watched my favourite band play in each Boston and Philadelphia; welcomed a slew of recent infants (congrats to all my new mama friends!!!); and capped off the 12 months by touring via Germany, Austria, Slovakia, and Hungary with my mother (may have completed with out the Covid we each introduced dwelling, although). The highs have been excessive and the lows have been low, however I’m simply feeling actually fortunate to have my mother and my associates and my cute boyfriend and my candy coworkers and all of you, too. Life’s wanting fairly okay proper now, I feel 🙂
The phrase ‘new chapter’ will get thrown round quite a bit in terms of resolutions and reflections for the upcoming 12 months, however I imply it once I say 2022 has felt like I’ve entered one (in one of the best ways). Whereas the 12 months has been barely much less ‘eventful’ (comparatively) to among the others within the latest previous (In 2019 I moved to New York then to LA for EHD, 2020 was clearly bizarre however memorable, and 2021 felt like such a large distinction to 2020 with ‘regular’ life trickling again and a few huge journey moments), however being extra stagnant this 12 months has introduced a large quantity of private progress and alter I by no means would have predicted. 2019 me and 2022 me are two very completely different variations of myself: the brand new me has developed sturdy objectives and needs in life & has discovered much more about who I’m and who I wish to be. It’s been a 12 months of reaching for brand new heights. I began a TikTok account and received a number of of my first (and intensely superior) partnerships which has been a dream come true!!! and I’m studying increasingly more about how I can attain my fullest potential whereas nonetheless being completely satisfied (which is so essential). I’ve at all times been an enormous ‘work onerous, play onerous’ type of particular person, and these days I’ve been honing in on what each work and play ought to appear to be of their highest type. For instance, in terms of ‘play’ I’m realizing how a lot I like having TICKETS to actually something & that having significant connections & making recollections are an important issues. I’m so grateful to be surrounded by a lot love in my life – each from my household, associates and my very particular particular person, Chase. Having a life associate like him via these years of turbulence has been so particular, and I’ll by no means take that as a right 🙂 And in terms of work, I’m loving the place I’m at and am so grateful to be part of this workforce. Having a job that creatively encourages me on this very particular (however unbelievable) discipline that I by no means would have recognized existed if it wasn’t for EHD and also you all –– so THANK YOU. I can’t wait to see the place 2023 takes us as a workforce & I’m so excited to proceed studying, evolving and rising into the particular person I hope to be. Now let’s kick this new 12 months off proper!! 🙂
Nicely, that’s all EHD wrote:) Glad completely satisfied New Yr’s Eve and cheers to a brighter 2023.
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